Sometimes, I wish that I was crazy, that this world I am living in isn’t real, but a surrealistic nightmare that is the product of an insane mind.
This process of recognizing the insanity is so freaking painful that I do understand, from the bottom of my heart, why most people aren’t doomers.
My virtual friend Gail, over at Wit’s End, had a killer post up recently. She’s way more technologically advanced than I am, and she’s doing a gut-wrenching thingie wherein a picture of a tree from last year is compared to a tree of this year.
In the same post, she mentions that we need a new word for what witnessing the collapse of the natural world feels like. Because “depression” doesn’t cut it.
I have personal knowledge of clinical depression. It runs in the family. I did two terms of psychotherapy for a total of 14 years, and it was a valuable experience that I don’t regret, but it did not stop the depressions. Every person is different, of course, but mine were crushing, numbing weights that made the difference between waking and sleeping negligible.
That by way of explaining why I’m in agreement with Gail. We not only need a new word to describe this feeling, but we may need a whole new vocabulary.
I use the words sanity and insanity, but really, what does that communicate?
Take a look at this image….a before and after shot of the tar sands in Alberta Canada.
That’s insane, right?
But not insane enough!
Because Toshiba is developing a small nuclear device to help extract those tar sands even more efficiently.
Nothing says money quite like mixing bitumen with nuclear material, does it?
I want someone to waken me from this nightmare. I don’t need to ride roller coasters or watch horror movies; I’m daily terrified and horrified just by reading the news.
Then along comes the Nature article, a peer reviewed paper, that basically says that by 2047, if we don’t stop our current emissions, we are toast. And even if we do, we may get another 10 years or so.
This study concentrates only on climate. It does not take into account ocean acidification, population growth, the loss of arable land, little things like Fukushima, or any of the inter-relationships that all contribute to our demise.
Now, that is some stunning shit right there. And, how many people have even heard of this study? It was all over the news, even in the mainstream press, and the response to it has been…..? Continuing the emissions, of course!
Just as discussing population growth is a taboo subject, the hard, provable scientific fact that burning fossil fuels is going to kill millions of people is just not something anyone wants to face.
And yet, we doomers keep trying to wake people up. I know I do. I keep hoping that people with young children will take this shit seriously, that they will see that the survival of their own is at stake.
But a sane person can only conclude that people want to deny so badly that they’ll kill their own children to do it. Slowly.
Wake me up. Please.